what a year

this is my first entry. i will do this in english so my international friends can read this.
today i am down because i have to face the shady sides of my personality. i am broke and it does not have to be this way. i am a drug addict and though i am clean my addiction shows in my lack of self-organisation. this i want to change and i will change it. this time i will not ask people for help but go through it. with my head up. that way i will learn more from it, i am sure. i am now starting to build up a life from the bottom. and thats good. its alright. i dont have to starve and i have friends and love. thats all i really need. things will work out. lets be patient and conscious. so much for now.